for Kalindi Smith 1980-2001

I dedicate this beautiful Stuart Davis song to Kalindi and to everyone who has ever succumbed to despair and committed suicide, and to those left behind - who have to deal with the complex pain of losing someone that way. Kalindi, I still think of you every day. Thank you for touching my soul. You are often in my thoughts and always in my heart. I know I couldn't have stopped you but I wish you hadn't been alone, I wish I could have at least held you when you left this world.


album: 16 Nudes
artist: Stuart Davis
lyrics: "Jonah"


The dogs are still expecting
your father is a general
Benjamin's a murderer
Your sister is a sponge
your mother is worker

Jonah, I ran into your mom, she isn't aging very well
sometimes I think her face is gonna burst
cause hiding pain is work, and your mother is a worker

Jonah, some thoughts about your sister- her eyes are always closed
ever since that day she's held a certain pose
it's not a coma, she's the opposite of numb
some people soak pain up, and your sister is a sponge
and your mother is a worker

Jonah, I still see Ben but if I bring your name up the conversation ends
cause he loaned you the shotgun you took up to the cabin
whatever people say, he only hears the words 'Benjamin's a murderer'
your sister is a sponge, your mother is a worker

Jonah, Jonah, news about your dad- you thought he drank before
now he drinks, his body is at war and his stomach's never full
cause your father is a general, Benjamin's a murderer,
your sister is a sponge, your mother is a worker

Jonah, they gave me your goddamn dogs and I'm sick of what they do
they bark at everything until they see it isn't you
cause the dogs are still expecting, your father is a general
Benjamin's a murderer, your sister is a sponge, your mother is a worker

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That's one of my favorite Stuart Davis songs, and Stuart Davis is one of my favorite dharmalicious singer/songwriters. If you ever get a chance to see him in concert please do so, his live shows are awesome. His music and a lot of information about him is available at http://www.stuartdavis.com/.